UNDER CONSTRUCTION; Mind, Body, Soul and Website

So, I know you have been wondering where I have been these last weeks. Right? IMG_5149Let me tell you.

I’ve been everywhere and nowhere.

Easy part first. Slowly I’m creating this blog into a better, more accessible, website. I did say slowly didn’t I?

Mast Cell Wise its been a rough time. Plenty of anaphylaxis, the insertion of a PICC Line which will lead to continuous medications via a CADD Pump and weekly hydration, not to mention the injections of Xolair monthly. My body is tired..very tired. The pain at times unbearable. I have hope that these new trials will provide a better quality of life. Hope is a wonderful thing,. even when you are clinging to it by your fingernails as we often do.  It keeps us going.

SOULSEARCHING

Life on a couch allows one plenty of time for contemplation, meditation and wonder. I have dates set up for readings at library’s, interviews being organized. I need to do these things because, as you know, the books are for Covenant House, Vancouver. The kids, my kids, our kids.

I get worried I won’t be able to honour my commitments and try to stay conscious and awake to my true feelings. Self betrayal comes easy for adoptees, well everyone, but adoptees especially. It can be a habit we don’t even know we have. As adoptees we were born without our truth which you need to be your authentic self. The discovery takes time, energy, search, fragmentation from reunion or discovery and then rebuilding on a stronger foundation.

What do YOU want for a change?

Go with your feelings. Ask yourself when and with whom do you swallow your truth. Why do you swallow your truth? Why do you hide your authentic self? Do you give in to others easily? Why? Are you not worthy of being true to yourself?

Having lived a life of search and discovery I see clearly now as my authentic self. That little whisper of a voice you hear, that sense of spirit, intuition…it belongs to you. That is what you need to tune in to, pay attention and listen to. Overtime, if you don’t follow that inner wisdom, you will feel a loss of energy, power and a sense of spiritual deadness.

Have you given up your own personal story for that of another?

Have you sold out yourself?

Behind that.. lies the voice of fear. Don’t let fear run your life. Ask yourself questions, face fear straight on.

People may judge but in the end it is yours to live, just yours. Embrace yourself and your story. Time passes quickly, life changes. Find your authentic being.

Live loud and strong.

As I contemplate my recent losses, my recent discoveries, my new normal in the physical/medical world, I know I’m now living from my heart and spirit.

David Whyte, the poet reminds us that the soul would rather fail at its own life than succeed at someone else’s.

Times will present themselves where you are given the option of which direction to go.

Which will you choose?

5 thoughts on “UNDER CONSTRUCTION; Mind, Body, Soul and Website

  1. Dear Claire

    Please let me inform you about some news from our histamine & mast cell group SIGHI:

    1) New Cookbook:
    The SIGHI cookbook “Mast-Cell-Friendly and Low-Histamine Cooking” has become very popular in the German speaking countries. In addition to histamine, histamine liberators (liberators of mast cell mediators) are avoided as well.
    We get very positive feedbacks (e.g. http://www.amazon.de/dp/3863867483).
    Now, there is also an English translation available:
    http://www.mastzellaktivierung.info/en/therapy_cookingrecipes.html
    or
    http://www.histaminintoleranz.ch/en/therapy_cookingrecipes.html

    2) New website mastzellaktivierung.info:
    The website mastzellaktivierung.info is new and therefore, the EN translations are still incomplete. However, this will hopefully become better soon. Our food list and some other content is already available in EN:
    http://www.mastzellaktivierung.info/en/downloads.html

    I would be very grateful if you could check this out and let your readers know. Many thanks!

    Best regards

    H. Lamprecht, Swiss Interest Group Histamine Intolerance (SIGHI)
    http://www.histaminintoleranz.ch
    http://www.mastzellaktivierung.info

  2. remembering: living ceremony at all levels…

    and poetry provides one’s senses perspective to ponder…

    Hope” is the thing with feathers –
    That perches in the soul –
    And sings the tune without the words –
    And never stops – at all – emily dickinson

    with respect and gratitude for sharing your
    perspectives and personal journey. when
    one’s light is on, on the way others will see,
    all shining together in the darkness.

  3. Thanks Claire … For sharing your beautiful authentic self … Wouldn’t it be nice for you to know how many people you are truly helping with your heart 🙂 Xoxo

    Sent from my iPad

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