This is what we say in the “mast cell world” when the mast cells take over. My challenge for the last few days was to pay attention and take care of myselfsomething I have been known to avoid, ignore, not believe it was needed anything to just keep going. I know I wrote about that in another post. Obviously it’s something I need a lot of practice in.
This past week, I had appointments with doctors on the last 3 days and that, was all I could manage. I wanted to write, I sat down to write, but the words wouldn’t come and the eyes wouldn’t see…so I lay down where I should have been in the first place..
“If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
If I am only for myself, what good am I?
And if not now,, when?
Growing up, there was no such thing as self-care. I’m sure those of us from the 50’s know what I’m talking about. Imagine…no spa’s, no holiday’s, no relaxing by the beach with a book, no yoga classes, no pedicures or dining out.
Horrors! I can hear it now…”What! No spa? No yoga class? What did you do? Well, my darlings…we worked. We worked in the garden, we canned, we painted rooms and ceilings and floors and then washed the dirty clothes in a wringer washer that you had to manually stand and feed the clothes through the ringer..Yup…stand. And then, it was time to get dinner ready.
We are now in an era of excessive self care…not excessive self love, let me make that clear but for many of us…now..us older folk..self love is the reason we don’t do much self care..
Did you follow that?
There is nothing you have to do to earn your self-love and self -acceptance. We are good enough, smart enough,
We aren’t broken and we don’t need to be fixed. But, herein lies the paradox. If we are perfect just the way we are, then why are we on the self-improvement treadmill. Why do we push ourselves to the brink of no return.
Self acceptance people! Feeling okay about where we are right now and just being in that space until it’s time to move forward.
How often have you attended to others when you yourself were tired and wanting? How often have you filled someone else’s cup when yours was empty?
It used to be considered selfish and unkind to attend to ourselves first. We, the older generation were taught to put others before ourselves always. There has to be a balance. To stay on our path, to focus on our visions there is something to be said for appropriate time for self care. Many of us are still relearning that belief to include ourselves in the care.
Thus, my last few days of unwritten blog entry’s were taken up by self-care.